The pain of heartache flows in the narrow river. I watch the ripple from the footbridge above, feeling helpless, hopeless. There is little I can do.
Do I let my heart feel the sorrow, the grief? Sometimes I do.
Sometimes I cry with the young wife and mother who lost her 2-year-old daughter and the husband carrying her on his back. Or with the Honduran woman whose husband did not want to come but listened to his wife’s plea. “It’s only for a few years,” she told this strong man who could no longer keep his family fed and safe.
He did not make it across the Rio Grande.
Nor did the 21-year-old female who’d been sent to wait in Mexico. Alone and vulnerable. No one to protect her from imminent rape. She tried to venture back across.
Taking the risk in the water was better than the risk of waiting in Juarez.
Single women, mothers with children – they are the easy targets.
I’ve heard courtroom reports of Guatemalan women pleading with the judge at their initial court hearing not to send them back. “Put me in a cell,” one tells the judge. She would rather be locked up while she waits than be “free” in the homicide capital of Mexico.
“They extorted my family for money,” another one says. “I’m afraid to go back.”
Two women sob in the courtroom, with their young children in tow. Intruders tried to rape them at their shelter.
Those of us who live at the border – we all know it’s not safe in Juarez. There is nothing protective about this outrageously unsafe policy, the complete opposite of any kind of “protection” for migrants.
Even the El Paso City Council denounced the “Remain in Mexico” policy 6 to 1 back in July. Still, it continues.
I read about a priest who was kidnapped in early August by a gang for not letting them into his shelter to kidnap migrants. He is still missing. Another priest was killed outright in Matamoros.
Now at our hospitality center, Casa del Refugiado, in El Paso, a different kind of migrant passes through. The kind that can take a plane across Mexico and land closer to the border. The kind that have cell phones and are cellphone savvy enough to make their own travel arrangements quickly. Some leave our center within less than 24 hours of arriving.
Granted, not all are like this. But I hardly see the desperate, disheveled, dirty faces anymore. Those who had to leave their country just to survive. And started out on foot.
Facing extreme hardships. Extreme suffering. Extreme roadblocks along the way.
Wait in Mexico? They have been waiting. Especially the Guatemalans, the Hondurans, the El Salvadorans. Waiting for justice and safety that do not exist.
So, this tiny patch of water that separates two cities, two countries, poses a minor obstacle.
Still, the river can be deceptive.
The water churns, swirls, gains power.
So many stories are buried in its silt.
I ask, what can I do? Plead? Wail?
And then I do one thing I know I am asked to do. I pick up my pen. I tell others. I write the stories, hoping those who read will know that we cannot stand on the shore watching. We, too, must wade in. Feel this churning, swirling power.
Maybe it will change us. Maybe it will cause us to act.